I am beginning my Visa process. It isn't as tedious as the US visa but can still give me palpitation all the same.
The wierd part of the UK visa is that there are no clear regulations as to what docs need to be submitted. Its at your discretion said the VFS lady.
If it was really at my discretion I should be getting my visa with only my passport at hand.
It is quite crazy.
Any way the only piece of good news today was that Dukes aced her exams. thank GOD.
At least aai will sleep happy tonite.
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
Sunday, June 19, 2005
From Grief hopefully will come Relief !
Last Week I witnessed a whole range of emotions within myself. A very good friend of mine lost his father. It was sudden. This singular event brought me crashing down from the euphoria I had experienced at being back in Mumbai. It forced me to face a reality that I was unwilling to do for GOD knows how long.
Death of A loved one.
My Parents, my husband, my sister, my in-laws, my friends. I have always been called a person who has been very mature for my age. But in my own childish way I perceived my loved ones to be immortal.
That does not make any sense to me, right now, that I am forced to think rationally. What appalls me about the situation is that I truly believed that I would never have to face this situation.
The wierder part of the situation is that I am not worried about my own death. I could die tomorrow for all I know. But that thought does not bother me.
May be It was a defence mechanism acquired over my years of growing up. I still am unsure of as to where I stand in my belief system. I suppose it will take time to readjust my beliefs about the pseudo - immortality of the people I hold close to my heart.
I feel the need to initiate the first step to re-evaluating my beliefs. Understanding, with it comes acknowledgement, with which comes acceptance. This is going to be an up hill battle.
A battle with whom????????????????
I am utterly confused.
I really am unsure of as to what is the first step.
I suppose realising that this is a problem could be a first step.
Right now I feel the need to just be cathartic in order to un burden myself.
One day at a time is what I am saying to myself at this moment.
Death of A loved one.
My Parents, my husband, my sister, my in-laws, my friends. I have always been called a person who has been very mature for my age. But in my own childish way I perceived my loved ones to be immortal.
That does not make any sense to me, right now, that I am forced to think rationally. What appalls me about the situation is that I truly believed that I would never have to face this situation.
The wierder part of the situation is that I am not worried about my own death. I could die tomorrow for all I know. But that thought does not bother me.
May be It was a defence mechanism acquired over my years of growing up. I still am unsure of as to where I stand in my belief system. I suppose it will take time to readjust my beliefs about the pseudo - immortality of the people I hold close to my heart.
I feel the need to initiate the first step to re-evaluating my beliefs. Understanding, with it comes acknowledgement, with which comes acceptance. This is going to be an up hill battle.
A battle with whom????????????????
I am utterly confused.
I really am unsure of as to what is the first step.
I suppose realising that this is a problem could be a first step.
Right now I feel the need to just be cathartic in order to un burden myself.
One day at a time is what I am saying to myself at this moment.
Thursday, June 09, 2005
Change of Pace
Change of Pace.
Nothing ever remains constant other than change.
I was seeking this very change when I arrived at Pune.
I met viju mavshi’s gang . had the most delightful chat session with Tanuja Tai and Deepti.
It felt great meeting kassy and amru again. Met amru’s sandy. Cool Guy. My very best to him for having decided to jhelo Amru for life.
Met most of the gang . I felt I was having a blast but now a creepy melancholic feeling has set in.
A week in Pune is driving me up the wall. How in the world am I going to spend a year in London is beyond my realm of comprehension.
Over the years I have come to the conclusion that home is not a place where four walls meet, rather I perceive home to be a place where the heart is.
So the conclusion to this blog . I want to go home to MUMBAI.
Home to Sarang aai, baba, and of course dukes.
Nothing ever remains constant other than change.
I was seeking this very change when I arrived at Pune.
I met viju mavshi’s gang . had the most delightful chat session with Tanuja Tai and Deepti.
It felt great meeting kassy and amru again. Met amru’s sandy. Cool Guy. My very best to him for having decided to jhelo Amru for life.
Met most of the gang . I felt I was having a blast but now a creepy melancholic feeling has set in.
A week in Pune is driving me up the wall. How in the world am I going to spend a year in London is beyond my realm of comprehension.
Over the years I have come to the conclusion that home is not a place where four walls meet, rather I perceive home to be a place where the heart is.
So the conclusion to this blog . I want to go home to MUMBAI.
Home to Sarang aai, baba, and of course dukes.
Sunday, June 05, 2005
Fear of Fear
Confronting and solving problems is a painful process, which most of us attempt to avoid and the very avoidance results in greater pain and inability to grow mentally.
One of the reasons of this avoidance is fear of either the known or the unknown.
Fear is one of the most basic of human emotions. It is essential to ensure the survival of a species. Fear is the terror of not knowing whether there will be a tomorrow. Fear is the worry felt for the well - being of one's loved ones.
Fear like other emotions has a distinct path. There is irritation which turns into annoyance. If the environment persists it turns into worry. The final stage of this journey is fear.
True and unhindered fear is an experience that few people ever forget in a life time.
People who have performed acts of bravery also experience fear. What distinguishes them from the cowards is that they are willing to face their fears for a greater good.
Psychological warfare has its theoretical basis in the psyche of terror.
To inflict unimagined and unparreled terror is the aim of people who make the use of this tactic
Fear is a very crucial emotion for it drives almost the entire functioning of the world. From defence and foreign policies of nation - states to the stock markets, fear absoulutely dictates the functionality to make ends meet.
Fear in the 21st century is experiencing a paradigm shift.
Hence it becoms of essence to mold our responses and defence mechanisms accordingly. How does one ensure sovereignity and terretorial integrity in the age of globalization.
Here comes into picture what Samuel Huntington wrote about some decades ago, ' The clash of civilasations'.
It is as inevitable as the rising and falling tide.
And the winner, in the multipolar existence of ours, shall be the one who figures out the answer to this dilemma.
One of the reasons of this avoidance is fear of either the known or the unknown.
Fear is one of the most basic of human emotions. It is essential to ensure the survival of a species. Fear is the terror of not knowing whether there will be a tomorrow. Fear is the worry felt for the well - being of one's loved ones.
Fear like other emotions has a distinct path. There is irritation which turns into annoyance. If the environment persists it turns into worry. The final stage of this journey is fear.
True and unhindered fear is an experience that few people ever forget in a life time.
People who have performed acts of bravery also experience fear. What distinguishes them from the cowards is that they are willing to face their fears for a greater good.
Psychological warfare has its theoretical basis in the psyche of terror.
To inflict unimagined and unparreled terror is the aim of people who make the use of this tactic
Fear is a very crucial emotion for it drives almost the entire functioning of the world. From defence and foreign policies of nation - states to the stock markets, fear absoulutely dictates the functionality to make ends meet.
Fear in the 21st century is experiencing a paradigm shift.
Hence it becoms of essence to mold our responses and defence mechanisms accordingly. How does one ensure sovereignity and terretorial integrity in the age of globalization.
Here comes into picture what Samuel Huntington wrote about some decades ago, ' The clash of civilasations'.
It is as inevitable as the rising and falling tide.
And the winner, in the multipolar existence of ours, shall be the one who figures out the answer to this dilemma.
Thursday, June 02, 2005
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
Love
LOVE TRANSCENDS DEATH
People we love continue to touch our hearts and lives even after they are gone.
I have come to believe this axiom from the depths of my being. Not that I have experienced any para normal activity in my house, but the fact that thoughts about my loved ones continue to bring a smile on my lips.
Shelley aptly penned it in " Music when soft voices die", 1824
Rose leaves, when the rose is dead,
Are heaped for the beloved's bed
And so thy thoughts, when thou are gone,
Love itself shall slumber on.
What makes this bond of love so strong? I have often wondered.
Is it that Love is like a fantasy come true. The stronger it becomes the longer it is brewed.
So does that make love 'Nestle Kinjara'.
Maybe love is like sunshine that turns the sky gold.
Maybe it's a fragrance that thousand blossoms hold.
Love might be the pathway to dreams come true.
What I know as a certainity is that love is definitely a blessing, a privilege, gifted to you allowing you to competely unmask yourself.
Only a person who has truly basked in the glory of loving someone and being loved in return can comprehend my feelings. I would like to make this clear that
I am not a proponent of the unconditional love theory, because I beleive that every relationship is based on some parameters, boundaries - violating which is unacceptable.
A friend of mine once asked me what kind of love did I believe in - was it love at first sight or the harry met sally kind of a love. If love truly transcends death then how can love be at first sight or for that matter at any sensory perception or for that matter why do two people have to meet over 2 decades to finally realise that they have to spend their lives together. Can't it just be as Elizabeth Barret Browning expressed in ' Sonnets from the Portugese', 1850
If thou must love me, let it be for naught
Except for love's sake only.
Now a person who loves like there's no tomorrow truly lives. I do not mean that caution should be thrown to the winds instead love instills responsibility. Understanding that responsibility can help a person love another from the depths of his / her soul.
As Nikki Giovanni , 1982, said ' We love because it's the only true adventure.
Love is the most beautiful of emotions - because it is the most powerful. It has the power to create, to preserve, to destroy.
It is the holy trinity from which everything begins and ends.
Maybe Madonna hit the bulls eye when she said 'Love makes the world go round'.
On that note Cheers and Ciao.
People we love continue to touch our hearts and lives even after they are gone.
I have come to believe this axiom from the depths of my being. Not that I have experienced any para normal activity in my house, but the fact that thoughts about my loved ones continue to bring a smile on my lips.
Shelley aptly penned it in " Music when soft voices die", 1824
Rose leaves, when the rose is dead,
Are heaped for the beloved's bed
And so thy thoughts, when thou are gone,
Love itself shall slumber on.
What makes this bond of love so strong? I have often wondered.
Is it that Love is like a fantasy come true. The stronger it becomes the longer it is brewed.
So does that make love 'Nestle Kinjara'.
Maybe love is like sunshine that turns the sky gold.
Maybe it's a fragrance that thousand blossoms hold.
Love might be the pathway to dreams come true.
What I know as a certainity is that love is definitely a blessing, a privilege, gifted to you allowing you to competely unmask yourself.
Only a person who has truly basked in the glory of loving someone and being loved in return can comprehend my feelings. I would like to make this clear that
I am not a proponent of the unconditional love theory, because I beleive that every relationship is based on some parameters, boundaries - violating which is unacceptable.
A friend of mine once asked me what kind of love did I believe in - was it love at first sight or the harry met sally kind of a love. If love truly transcends death then how can love be at first sight or for that matter at any sensory perception or for that matter why do two people have to meet over 2 decades to finally realise that they have to spend their lives together. Can't it just be as Elizabeth Barret Browning expressed in ' Sonnets from the Portugese', 1850
If thou must love me, let it be for naught
Except for love's sake only.
Now a person who loves like there's no tomorrow truly lives. I do not mean that caution should be thrown to the winds instead love instills responsibility. Understanding that responsibility can help a person love another from the depths of his / her soul.
As Nikki Giovanni , 1982, said ' We love because it's the only true adventure.
Love is the most beautiful of emotions - because it is the most powerful. It has the power to create, to preserve, to destroy.
It is the holy trinity from which everything begins and ends.
Maybe Madonna hit the bulls eye when she said 'Love makes the world go round'.
On that note Cheers and Ciao.
Cycle of life
Barren and dry they look to the conscious eye
But beneath they are eager to branch out to life,
eagerly awaiting a warm ray of light.
To be touched by life itself,
to be reincarnated must be a trivial thing for thee.
but for them it potrays their rebirth,
their chance to relive a spring, a summer, an autumn.
A chance to bring forth the simple pleasures of life.
- Sunila Kelkar
But beneath they are eager to branch out to life,
eagerly awaiting a warm ray of light.
To be touched by life itself,
to be reincarnated must be a trivial thing for thee.
but for them it potrays their rebirth,
their chance to relive a spring, a summer, an autumn.
A chance to bring forth the simple pleasures of life.
- Sunila Kelkar
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